So, as I was saying, I had a colonoscopy. The results were not what I wanted to hear. I was diagnosed with rectal cancer. I wrote the following when we found out what would be in our future.
“We are in the middle of completing the necessary tests and pre-treatments. Getting ready for Chemo and Radiation. I don’t feel good. My blood is low and my energy level is for all practical purposes non-existent. My bowels are crazy. I am losing a lot of blood somewhere and I am wondering, “Why me?” To quote Whitney, our youngest daughter when planning for her brain surgery, ‘I don’t have time for this crap.’ Well, If I’m going to make it through this, I have to have time. I have to settle in and do what has to be done to get well and get rid of the cancer. I lay awake at night and think about my Mom and Dad. I think of the sleepless nights they must have spent. I think of how Dad must have thought, ‘I don’t have time for this crap.’ But it was dumped on them and it’s been dumped on me. I can choose to be bitter and depressed about the whole thing. Or I can choose to follow the example that my Mom and Dad left me. I decided to follow their example. I will be as positive as I can. I will smile, even when I don’t feel like it. I will let others help me. (That is going to be one of the hardest things for me to do.) I will do whatever is necessary to beat this thing. I will pray night and day. I will study the gospel plan by reading the scriptures. I will love my family unconditionally. Especially my dear sweet Brenda. I will have an attitude of gratitude. I will not whine. ( I may have to think about that one from time to time.) I will do what my doctors and family say. And I will not lose my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I will beat this thing. And I will do it by following the path that my Mom and Dad took. The path of strength and happy thoughts. The path that Jesse and Ruby Allan, my Mom and Dad forged.
I hope you have enjoyed this episode of Healing. Please feel free to join me each week for the next 2 or 3 months, and hopefully, I can help you or someone you know become a stronger cancer warrior. Share this musical podcast with your friends and family. Cancer needs to be put in its place!
So, as I was saying, I had a colonoscopy. The results were not what I wanted to hear. I was diagnosed with rectal cancer. I wrote the following when we found out what would be in our future.
“We are in the middle of completing the necessary tests and pre-treatments. Getting ready for Chemo and Radiation. I don’t feel good. My blood is low and my energy level is for all practical purposes non-existent. My bowels are crazy. I am losing a lot of blood somewhere and I am wondering, “Why me?” To quote Whitney, our youngest daughter when planning for her brain surgery, ‘I don’t have time for this crap.’ Well, If I’m going to make it through this, I have to have time. I have to settle in and do what has to be done to get well and get rid of the cancer. I lay awake at night and think about my Mom and Dad. I think of the sleepless nights they must have spent. I think of how Dad must have thought, ‘I don’t have time for this crap.’ But it was dumped on them and it’s been dumped on me. I can choose to be bitter and depressed about the whole thing. Or I can choose to follow the example that my Mom and Dad left me. I decided to follow their example. I will be as positive as I can. I will smile, even when I don’t feel like it. I will let others help me. (That is going to be one of the hardest things for me to do.) I will do whatever is necessary to beat this thing. I will pray night and day. I will study the gospel plan by reading the scriptures. I will love my family unconditionally. Especially my dear sweet Brenda. I will have an attitude of gratitude. I will not whine. ( I may have to think about that one from time to time.) I will do what my doctors and family say. And I will not lose my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I will beat this thing. And I will do it by following the path that my Mom and Dad took. The path of strength and happy thoughts. The path that Jesse and Ruby Allan, my Mom and Dad forged.
I hope you have enjoyed this episode of Healing. Please feel free to join me each week for the next 2 or 3 months, and hopefully, I can help you or someone you know become a stronger cancer warrior. Share this musical podcast with your friends and family. Cancer needs to be put in its place!